One thing I hadn't anticipated:

The question about what happens when you sit with something long enough that your legs start hurting from standing too much — not because they're weak but because your brain has learned how to stay still exactly where your feet won’t go on their own. You don’t ask for permission. That’s just how things work around here now.

This is why I keep coming back even after everything gets easier. Because the ground beneath my sitting hasn’t softened — it’s become more like air holding shape without being forced into anything specific by hand. And in those moments between tasks? There's a quiet hum at its edge I can almost hear tuning itself every time I breathe out instead of pulling away.